My yellow mug with green tea has been kept on my study table for 2 hours .And i still dont wish to move it. I am looking at things under my table lambs light, giving a self motivation that there is no need to have teary eyes. Things will setlle down soon and everything will be alright . But i have lost at the point having my tears turning down to my cheeks just because i cant regret the that i am women who has to take care of every single step before i decide something to do . My hyper sensitivity itself is killing me internally and here i give up. I tell myself ”Stop!, its not in ur hand anymore, leave the rest on Allah”. But that reliefs me either.
The best thing i would like to suggest to every person living in quetta. Since i have spent all my life in here and i can only conclude that either u have to indulge urself totally as a social person which makes alot of people dependent on you becaus eof ur strong position in society especailly when u have a little money aswell. Or u should remain a lonely person with a limited company so that u will be away from alot of issues. I prefer the second one. Being alone is better then hurting urself by others. I am hurt and broke and dissapointed from alot of people in my life . And they have made me learn alot of things that will never make me commit such mistakes again…Gora shayestay injelai pashaymana basay…..
Running away from Quetta was the best option in these vacations but there were some problems for which i had to stay . One of main were that i was a girl and i couldnt go alone. So you see ! even here chipkali has to sacrifice her enjoyment just becoz of her gender. Being a girl sucks. and its sucks more when ur very sensitive and conservative in nature. So it sucks to be me.
I cant regret the fact that i enjoyed my vacation in the form od shopping and spending my days at cousins and grandparents. Alot of friends were angry when they saw a no response from my side becoz i was having a ” GASHT ” of alot of places lolz . I didnt missed buitems even once. I knew i never want to leave buitems but i never missed it either . So This makes me say
” I HATE YOU BUITEMS BUT I STILL CANT STOP COMING BACK TO YOU.” (Walaka choray! degree lay kar hi jaoogi! )
Takatu campus project competition last year 2008
Believing everybody is dangerous; believing nobody is very dangerous!…what a great man said……I will not say I failed 1000 times, I will say that I discovered there are 1000 ways that can cause failure!
Here is a poem from Jahani that lifts the soul.
Chi pa zrra da thabi ‘at ki
Hangaama da ishq berpaasi
Da qudrat da naaz la bahra
Da hunar qathra jalaasi
Chi da husn da buth guthi
Da i ‘jaaz berbath aaghaaz ki
Zamzama si tharaana si
Ashkaara da junoon raaz ki
Chi deryaab da khilqatuno
Da ihsaan per tsapo raasi
Pa moujuno gerdaabo ki
Da tahsin tsaatski paidaa si
Daa da sh’er Somanaath day
Daa K ‘aba da da khiyaaluno
Daa shaayesth dai daa shkalaa da
Daa sharosh da hunaruno
Abdul Bari Jahani
September, 1979
One one sentence to express my reaction on this piece,
There is always a better life waiting for you. Running away from things is no guide to solution. I tried it and failed miserably. A good time will come up, so never lose hope. It looks sugar-coated in writing but believe me, much sweeter in exercising.
in my opninion you should admit that you did wrong, your that stubborn behaviour i did nothing wrong so why i shoud applogize or say sorry will make people go away. last advice for you learn the wisdom of compromise becoz itz better to bend a little rather to break any relatin forever. but .. you ll do better in life i pray for you
Just came across this entry again and I think I should express something:-)
Verily, there are many barriers to control over few things we consider to be in our ambit. We come to a superficial conclusion that these dubious plans would never transpire. Life continues as a burdensome task but I think if one forgets these handicaps and move on, no matter with a heavy heart then he/she should bear in mind that there would be a complete transformation or at least, a chance to grapple the most hated modes of life. We should not wait for the change alone but we have to prepare ourselves for that time which will be an abrupt infusion and believing big is working for that. Moving towards the time when we would be enjoying our lives after a tough fight. They say, show me a hero and I will tell you a tragedy.
Add to this, a courteous friend of mine taught me the most important lesson of my life. Going for a destiny, there can not be other than two ways: To enjoy the ongoing taste of being accordance with something to get achieved easily and not couching oneself in the real fire and living in endearing way that this thing is yours and you will get it as easily as you are enjoying having it for temporary basis. It is very soothing way but will never lead us to desired destiny or beyond.
The other path is to be devoted and very selfless about that endeavour of yours. This way is very alarming and filled with hardships all around but it marching towards the real destination provided one accepts it above board ( I believe on things resulting better than what we percept them to be in future).
I hope you and as well as me and any other person would opt the tiring path and going triumphant one day. Remember! This will make you fatigued and strained but believe me, is our happy terminations.